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13- 02-2006

I PROTEST THE MARLBORO COMPANY !!! AND ALL THE OTHER

CIGARETTE COMPANIES... FUCK YOU ALL .... I AM NOT GOING TO KILL

MY SELF ANYMORE....

I AM A NON-SMOKER SINCE YESTERDAY... DAY 2....

CENK

14-Dec-2005

Meeting of the Gods ... my son Efe finally met with one of his hero - Gokhan

from Athena.. let the pix do the talking ....

Finally finished the album of Dilemma (the band which I was producing)

Simone .... Niil ... the next project ...luve it....

BAAAHHHH gota GOOOOO....

05-October-2005

Alright ! Finally the drum recording is finished...(still producing this band called Dilemma )

it was fun to work with a great drummer ..."Arikan" he rocks !

I am going to start to edit those drums in place tomorrow..

you can check this recording (just the rough arrangement not sang yet)

demo Dilemma (right click save as)

Well Check out this picture.. what a silly look on my face :-) just trying to repair a hi-hat channel.. uh.. (see below)

I will do another radio interview :see below for the details...

Interview Date: Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Interview Time: 9:00am Central / 5:00pm in Turkey
Radio show: Independent Nation
Show location: Jasper, Tennessee, USA

and I've just learned that my favorite band Filter is history now.. the singer

Richard Patrick is in another band called "Army Of Anyone"

it's sad they were awesome !

Rock oN !

14-September-2005

Headache headache .. seems gotta go to the eye doctor.. working too much

in front of the computer.. probably I need glasses...

only darkness heals the pain..

Tried to leave a message to Richard Patrick of Filter through the http://thefiltered.com/v-web/

there is a dork over there who had banned me for that..what a pity that message could be

important for Rich... and...

I am receiving some messages from a guy called "barachiel" who said that he wrote %95 of Filter

records.. hmmmmm ... another dork in a Batman outfit ... :-)

I am still working on the bonus track for Grounded 2nd run.. we need a little more time

until the second run.. so wait .. I am collecting your barcodes.. soon I'll get in touch with you guys

and will ask addresses too..

My brother Pat Mastelotto celebrated his 50th birthday.. happy birthday Bro.. you rock.. !!!

Fman's (my son Efe) school started yesterday.. so we're all back in bizz...

and hey I need personal opinions for the songs of grounded.. not "WOW" a little more detailed...

(this message is for the Kipologists from the mighty forum)

headacher

09-September-2005

I'm back ... fully recharged .. back to our normal life...

nothing is eternal ...

cheers :-)

cenK ThE Lobster

17-August-2005

Hi All ,

Kip is producing a band called Legion and I must say watch out !

I've just sang & recorded back vocals for their song "I Want More"

and that's a smash hit... !!!

Finally decided to go to holiday after 4 years.. can't wait.. 26th of August..

I think I deserved that .. worked like a dog... see below that's where I am going..

Fethiye - Oludeniz (South of Turkey- Mediterranean)

Still producing that Turkish rock band .. working on their 7th song.. 3 to go..

and then mix...

When I'm back from the vacation I'll start to work on my new Turkish solo album..

+ will help Kip on his solo album and I'll be there in Nashville around 15th of September..

later ? another project with my bro Pat Mastelotto called MastelOttoman we've been working

on that for a long time..

that's all for now...

luV yA aLL

01-August-2005

Well... This is my free speech space... don't expect me to write daily things... nope..

it is like a secret garden.. everyone is invited .. just do not step on the grass..

I don't give a shit about politics... I will not try to be nice...Melodramatic self-importance ..

that can go to hell... why I am an artist ? or why am I trying to be an artist ? or why do I write

songs ? because dreams can't bleed .. because u can't stop the time.. because u can't beat up

the liar.. because you can't keep the love alive.. because u can't stop the rain.. and u can't

fake the truth.... the conclusion is : I am foolin' my self.. trying to survive in this sick world of

flies... don't get me wrong..this is not anger... this is not hate.. just my ticking consciousness..

alive n aware... alive n vulnerable.. as much as you are... as much as my little son..

who are u in your dreams ? who is that person ..your outside view ? did u balanced that yet ?

or is it too dangerous ? I am lucky as I am who I am when I write my songs.. that's me.. the real one..

that's where I am honest to my self... so at least try to keep a little space for your selves too.. where

u can be %100 you... keep that garden clean.. raise your hopes in there.. share your wisdom with others

and while u are still alive try to meet with others.. join your gardens ... move like turtles in there...

feel the smell of the fresh rain.. don't afraid to face your fears.. hold the others with love.. accept your

faults.. accept your self... be your self... carry that oxygen to the real world..

cause at the end of your day nothing will save u.. nor the flowers..outside is dangerous...

we need heroes like you .. :-)

love & peace

cenK

2004 By my Son Efe

21-June-2005

Sun is coming up...

my demons are resting at my ego's nest...

I am bleeding in my shadow before the storm rages in..

it's getting hot.. I am dripping my sins .. chasing winds through this hell

I am pure like the water... even behind those masks of smiles...

will the sky speak the word.... ? I am here to listen..for the last time...

dreams are sinking within the ocean... with my bullet proof skin...

and I 'm lighter than an Elf's whisper... crashing into your love...

see the child behind those eyes... man enough to cry out loud..

don't wanna touch the spear of destiny.. while it's carving my heart

cause I am here to taste it ..

So I am Walking with Angels.... with flowers in my mind...

cenK E.

15-June-2005

One of my best friend Kivanc just lost his father

it was not expected.. it felt like a knife in the heart..

sometimes life is showing it's real face ..telling us we're so vulnerable

we're so fragile.. and we're still acting like a hero... how pathetic...

and damn nobody "generally" gives a shit about real love.. to expect

nothing in return.. it seems so unreal.. isn't it ?

we're all carrying a suitcase.. everyday it's getting heavier.. collecting

things we'll never gonna use or need.. and then we all complain about our choices...

the reality we created.. it is damn hard to face the real person in you..in me...

sometimes I look in the mirror and I take a long hard look .. I see everyone...

I see the only one... aren't we the part of him... we're all one , on the way back home

to complete the one.. still fighting while we try to learn who we are... we are one...

we are so lonely...we are so together... he is only one...

life is like a clock... draw a circle... put your name on 12 .. that's where we start.. lets

say you are Mr. or Mrs. Z .. but without knowing the limits ..without the meaning.. just a "Z"

then we start to live.. some people say.. nope..you're "B" ..we do believe in that.. then something

happens on the way .. which proves we're "H" we say "man I am "H" yea.. how could I missed that..

then it goes on and on.. until we crash down to "6" the bottom.. the hell...

but the reality is.. we're on the way back to 12... where the "Z" is.. that's who we are .. the original you..

it was always there.. from the moment of your existence..

and when we are on 12 again.. there is only one difference we know the meaning ..we know what's "Z"

we know who we are.. endless circles of life... going round and round.. until we meet again...

I dedicate my album "Grounded" to my friend's father... rest in peace ...

cenK

PS: "This generation is a wicked generation ; it seeks for a sign and yet no sign shall be given to it..." LUKE 11:29

08-June-2005

Wow.. Had a peaceful day :-) woke up smoothly , played with Max

ordered Pizza from Dominos , played basketball with my son..

the band is not here today ..yea.. it is an off day !!!

Got an email from Jack Foster (Muse Wrapped records owner) he said he

loved the album... what else can I ask for :-)

Btw thanks for those lovely people like Jane , Maz , Kat and all who were there when I

was feeling sad.. love you guys :-) it felt like this - see below -

and another news.. seems my album is going to be released on the 19th of September

in Europe and a little bit earlier than that in the U.S. that's what they told me..

Please send me your requests like what do you wanna know about me.. or what do you

want to see in my web page.. ? let me know.. I will listen to your ideas..

bye for now..

peace

cenK

04-June-2005

Well another day just ended.. the band came around at 7:30 pm

I've transferred their audio files to the protools session (6 songs for now)

because of the weather here I had to change my guitar strings one more time

rust is killing everything ..

they left my house/studio around 1:00 am .. tomorrow will be a day off ...

before Monday I need to spend sometime with my son Mr.Efe

Kip is still away ..somehow he didn't call or write.. I wonder if is he alright..

also no news from the record company manager Trent.. it's like throwing a message

in a bottle to the ocean when I write an email to him..he never answers.. I hate this..

it is 03:06 am my wife is sleeping.. .. another dark night ..feeling lonely .. doesn't feel great

this is really common lately.. probably that's who I am.. sometimes it's easier for me to face the world

after midnight.. however it is painful... living like this ..feels like living a crime .. feels like alcatraz...

love

cenK

03-June2005

Well here I've started to write my diary , can't give u any reason why today..

It was a long period , a very hard working time for me to finish my album and

still trying to recover.

Especially the last 3 days were like (19-21 May) hell ..

Man the last 27 hours ..non-stop without sleeping.. anyway..

so today..

It is 12 mid-day the sun is shining outside .. drinking my coffee and typing..

This freedom is going to end and I will start to produce a Turkish rock band

called "Dilemma" tomorrow .. they are cool a 3 piece band.. so it is going to be

another hard working period for sure but at least it is not another sloppy Turkish pop

shit... as long as I am out from that matrix ..I am fine...

Like I've said.. today is just another day nothing special.. just started to write ...

hopefully my next entries will be more interesting.

take care and rock on..

cenK